Everybody needs to make time for the people and the things they love. But who really has the time to make time?! That’s my excuse anyway…I’m too busy getting stuff done/procrastinating/being a lazy little sod to actually sit down and sort myself out. It’s exhausting doing so much (or so little) all the time!
I used to be a freelance writer. I managed to start making a reasonably decent amount of money in a short space of time, but then gave up because I had to go out into the real world and find a real job. Not that I’m saying that freelance writers don’t have a real job, just that I had only just started up and had stupid things like rent/bills to pay. I got so bogged down by my day job, that my writing slipped by the wayside.
When I found out I was pregnant, I knew exactly what I was going to do with my maternity leave. Write! I planned to get started up again whilst I was still at work, and then by the time I went on maternity I’d already be making a little bit and could just build on it to increase my monthly income. By the time my baby was born, I was going to be making enough that I wouldn’t need to go back to work, and could be a stay-at-home mum.
Now, I’m not completely naive. I think (hope) there was a part of me which knew that there was no way this was going to happen. Not only because my organisational skills are appalling, but also because I lack the motivation. I always find something else to occupy my time (gaming/Netflix), or some excuse not to do it (too tired/can’t be bothered to move/just one more episode/too late to start now). My little boy is almost 8 months old (EEK!), I’m going back to work on the 9th, and I haven’t even attempted to make another go at freelancing. I think I deserve a pat on a back for that…I really have outdone myself.
I’d like to think that from now on, now I’ve realised how much I’ve let myself down, I will strive to make things better for myself and make time for the things I love. I’d also like to think this isn’t just a quick zap of motivation that has arrived with a sudden burst of energy. Please let it stay.
But as always, it is down to me to make sure that it lasts. It’s down to me to make time to sort my life out.